Let's Fly Together

Moments are truly fleeting times. How would we even know they existed without our memories? And yet, our memories are still imperfect. They're easily skewed by time, our imagination, and our hopes and dreams.

"Mustn't get our feet wet

Cause that leads to regret

Diving in too soon" 

It's funny how things that happened in the past can still influence you today. I supposed it is because humans are adaptive creatures. It's too bad that some scars never really disappear. Even after all these years, they still remain. The only difference is they're carefully tucked away in the back of my mind. I have a rather annoying case of the it's-too-good-to-be-true. Going through the whole being lied to and cheated on has lasting effects. I'm determined not to let it ruin the relationship I have now. I have to be specific, though. It's not that I am now cynical of all the good things in my life or that I'm highly suspicious of my boyfriend and his actions. It has more to do with me; the feeling of not being good enough, the thought of maybe he'll find someone better than me someday and he'll leave, too. Nothing has even remotely come close to leading me to feel this way, though. I love him and he loves me. I know this to be the truth. 

I've taken a few lessons from my past experience. One being that I won't ever settle for just being content in love. A fire can't burn unless you feed it wood and stoke the flames. A relationship, no matter how great in the beginning, will die unless you continue to put effort into making it work. It's why I'm always thinking of how I can make him smile and why I ask him if there's anything I can do better. I want to be the best person I can for me, for him, and for us. 

"Tell me, if I lie down

Would you stay now

And let me hold you?"

If I reach out to you first, will you take my hand? I found my courage, followed my heart, and it led me straight to you. For years, the distance between us grew shorter and shorter. Until one day, our hands met and haven't separated since. 

"If we take a walk out

In the morning dew

We could lay down

So I'm next to you"

This, in a sense, is how everything started. Our walks and conversations were enjoyable. I remember how calming it was to be beside you. It didn't matter whether we spoke or enjoyed the silence, I've never felt more serene than in your company. I am glad that feeling has not changed even after all these years.

I've had a wonderful two years and four months with you. I love you with all of my heart.

Little bird by Ed Sheeran really is a fitting song. It holds my insecurities, memories, hopes, and wishes for this relationship.